Dictionary meaning : Unhappy about being away and longing for familiar things or persons
A Perfect fit for my mind state now, its Diwali today and its one of the very special days i could say, a day filled with emotions this year.
Diwali in my childhood days starts a month before with a plan, first starts the list of crackers to buy and my all time favorite was Kaliswari fireworks and i was a regular customer for years, the list is constantly updated and deleted to bring it within my budget of around 300 rupees, yes it was a pretty tight budget those days, so have to make the max use of it and be frugal in my choices of crackers. A weekend will be decided for the purchase, its like a festival day, get up in the morning and get ready and ride my bike or get a bus to the shop, there was only one shop from the manufacturer itself and it was a small shop in the busy streets of Parrys corner, juggling my way to get to the counter was an art and finally spelling out my order, to my disappointment some of the items would not be in stock, some my favorite ones, then the fight starts again, it used to be like a trading floor quickly deciding my replacement item and also making sure it fits into my budget, and finally all billed and waiting for the big brown packet was fun, have never felt so anxious and happy to wait for my crackers.
Diwali…. ok Deepavali in south terms
starts a week before starting with bursting bijili crackers (small 2 inch size crackers) that come in a pack of 100, main fun is to burst them in the evening after finishing school, holding them in hand, lighting them and timing the throw to make it burst mid air, and especially who can forget the fantastic smell of burst crackers and its fumes, woaahh i loved the smell..
The big day on deepavali starts very early for us lot, we were a group of 5 neighbors, my self, Gokul, Balaji, Ravi, Kumar and some of my cousins, we have a competition as to who opens the show, whos first to wake up and light the loudest cracker and wake up all others, then its bath time, all silently indoors finishing up the oil bath and getting ready with the new dress and then the fun with the crackers start from early morning and goes on till late in the night with all my friends and the fun part is our dads also get into their childhood mode and play with us.
Today am in a totally silent and foreign land talking to my Dad and he burst into emotions thinking of the old days and the fun, he just spoke to me for a couple of seconds and he couldn’t speak a word more, he was drowned in emotion and i could see tears rolling down his cheeks, haven’t seen him this way anytime and i knew how much he felt, and at that instant a tear rolled down my cheeks too, thats the power of love and emotions.
I love you dad and mom on this wonderful day of lights and love, i wish you are as happy as always, missing you a lot and will be with you very soon, keep watching
The Nostalgic moments still remains,
The smell of flowers,
The taste of sweets,
The sound of crackers, and
The fun of lighting them, and
The fantastic Smell of cracker fumes and burst crackers,
The dads becoming children again,
The vision of Light,
The feeling of satisfaction,
The joy of sharing,
The sense of togetherness,
The sumptuous feast,
The smiling faces all around,
The colorful new dresses, and
among all the loud noise, there remained peace,
tranquility and light everywhere
The festival of Deepavali,
The Nostalgic moments shall remain with thy for ever.